It was about 2am , late night . That night I was not sleepy and neither him .We were celebrating our five years of relationship . We both were talking , remembering ,the first day we met , all the pain and the suffering that I have faced to be the only girl in his life , all the separation that we have gone through . All I knew was that he was mine , he was not going to be with anyone else .He was going to be with me forever . I was enjoying the moment . I was happy . I was on cloud nine .
As we were talking He kissed me on my fore Head and promised to be with me forever . He pull me closer , so close that I was clearly hearing his heartbeat . My heart started to beat faster , with his every kisses my breath was Increasing . I was living the moment where he was showering his love on me . I gave myself to him . I surrender myself to him to be his soul .
The next morning , when I wake up he was leaving . He said he had some works to do . Hours passed by ,he was not answering my calls . I was afraid , not a single good thought was coming to my mind . Though I kept on calling , I kept on messaging but there was no respond . And in the evening a message beeped that wrecked my world , It was from her ,the another girl in his life , she asked me whether I was in a relationship with him , I replied yes . Without out wasting a moment I called her up , though her line was busy , I kept on calling .After few minutes she called me back and said that she was talking to him , she was his girlfriend not me .My whole world just shattered hearing those words . She said that since morning he was with her , they were in a relationship , and I was no where in his life .I can’t believe my ears , what I heard ,was that Even true .
Hearing all this nothing comes to my mind , I just wanna talk to him . Not a single drop of tear was rolling from my eyes . I was afraid , shattered .I was not sleeping , not eating , all I want was his answers .I kept on repeating in my mind , whatever she said was false , it can’t be true so don’t cry .
It was about 1am and finally he called me , I was just hoping whatever she said must be a lie , my ears were waiting for his words . And then he talked , he asked me, whether I was going crazy to call him so many times and before I could ask him anything he said that I was not giving him his space ,he wanted some time to think . I asked him to think what? , what was all that a night before? , who was the girl who called me? , are you cheating on me? . And the only answer he gave was let’s break up . For a second I couldn’t believe my ears , tears were rolling down . I was begging him , not to do that to me please but he didn’t give a second thought and disconnected the line . I kept on calling but he blocked my number and my dream world just got destroyed .
I was angry ,sad , worried . I was alone . I was broken , but I couldn’t do anything , I wanna kill myself for loving him so much . I was frustrated so next morning I left for home . Though only thing was coming to my mind was him and his words . While I was sitting on the bus I kept on calling him but he didn’t answered , I was texting him but he didn’t replied . In just a day I was a stranger for him ,5 years of relationship finished in just blink of the eyes. “In my mind I was repeating to myself ” don’t cry , you are strong enough , he will call back , he loves you only you” I was a fool right .
At home also I was not able to sleep , I was not talking to anyone , I was not eating . It was like my smile , my happiness , my life has ended and at last I decided to finished myself . I was afraid but I was broken . I took the knife and was about to cut my wrist, My mom entered the room . She saw me with the knife that day I saw my mom crying . I said everything to her and she replied –
“I kept you in my womb for nine months and just for a boy you decided to kill yourself , he gave you love , happiness for just 5years but what about me I have been giving you everything love , happiness , care since you are in my womb . Did I fail to give you anything you want , if no than why is it that you took such a step without even thinking of me your dad your family beta , we love you . If the boy didn’t understood your love then you were also not able to understand our love “
She was sobering , tears were rolling down . The knife fell from my hands , I was angry at myself how stupid I was to even think such things.My love was my family ,they gave me unconditional love .I said sorry to my mom and promised her to never Ever repeat such things .
And after few days , he texted me again but that day I only replied Thankyou to him and asked him to move on .